Tuesday, November 27, 2012

When coca-cola made me cry...

Fulfilled Longing
He had been silent for four weeks.
 And then he spoke.

He said, "Coca-cola"
Because that's what the speech therapist told him to say.

And I cried.
I wanted to weep.
Instead tears ran down my cheeks.

He spoke. Emotion erupted from my eyes. I didn't know how much I had been longing for him to speak again. Until those tears came streaming down.

Proverbs 13:12 says:
"Hope deferred makes the heart sick, but a longing fulfilled is a tree of life."

Silent tears giving testimony to a longing fulfilled. May he -- my father-in-law -- who is still in the hospital battling to clear his lungs speak ever, clearer and clearer.

* * * 
Have you been startled by the intensity of a longing fulfilled?

Tuesday, November 20, 2012

A sacrifice of praise


"Through Jesus, therefore, 
let us continually offer to God a sacrifice of praise-- 
the fruit of lips that confess his name." 
Hebrews 13:15



Wednesday, November 14, 2012

Choosing light and airy



Celebrating 7 years of Jack.
All four of them enjoying Jack's new gifts.
As of late, it has been fairly deep here at Kath Ink. I would like to publish something light and airy but....sigh... I do not feel very light & airy. After more than 8 weeks of my father-in-law in the hospital, and then this past week a dear friends' newborn landed in  NICU, I guess it can be expected that my thoughts have been on the melancholy side.

Thank you for the comments and prayers for my father-in-law. He is improving and has moved to rehab but there is still a long journey home.



But, today, I choose to look at the neat events that have also been strewn along the path these past eight weeks or so.  The easiest way to do that is through a few pictures. Enjoy.

Visiting Papa on Halloween night, all of us could visit!
A first choir concert.

Thursday, November 8, 2012

Siblings round the table at day's end

Siblings 'round the table
At day's end
Many years since it's been
Just us

Wives, husbands, kids
Usually
Take their place around the table

But not tonight

Not at the end of this day
Nor at the end of that day
Both days
Breathing has been labored

And we gather

Because breath and life have been a struggle
In & out
Out & in
Labored & heavy

It is just the siblings here now
Children grown enough
To leave the adults
At the table
No in-laws either
They are busy taking care of other things

Just us

Gathered at the table
At the end of the waiting day
The miles apart
Have lessened

The tubes
The struggling of breath
The need for cheering one another's hearts
That comes by being in this loss
Together

Together
Around the table
Where we fought about whose turn it
Was to do the dishes
And we teased and scolded
And ate many meals
Siblings only
Just like the days of old

Except now
The battle is for life and breath

We wish it wasn't the suffering
That brought us here
Yet, we are
Together again as
Siblings round the table
At days end

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Linking with Emily at Imperfect Prose.

Friday, November 2, 2012

On the vision of legacy


These four grandchildren at Mt. Vernon in September.
Today marks seven weeks that my father-in-law has been in the hospital. Twelve or so years ago my mom was in the hospital for seven weeks. It is a really long time to be in the hospital. Seven weeks has touched three months this time -- September, all of October, and November. It was twelve years ago (i think) that my mom spent seven weeks in the hospital. We know now that she was done at seven weeks. We don't know when my father-in-law will be done.

My mom had walked around with a ruptured appendix for 10 days and then went to the hospital. My mom and my dad were snowbirding in Florida when it happened. Thousands of miles from their support center. I had two kids -- a 1 year old and a baby. Once my mom was on a rehab floor and out of the restricted floors, I came down to see my mom with my baby. With my Sophie Sunshine. My dad really wanted us to come down because he needed a distraction for my mom because she was getting depressed being in the hospital so long.

Again I  see the grandchildren having a wonderful effect on a grandparent just as Baby Sophie had on my mom all those years ago. Grandpa brightens up so much when he sees the children. He smiles big and laughs and enjoys hearing about their lives. It is a beautiful gift to watch. Though I have four children, and he is glad to see all of them. My Sophie Sunshine is the one who chatters and chatters and interacts the most. Her job to bring sunshine to the world. Grandpa loves seeing the youngest, the one who shares his middle name, especially because he has only been able to see him a couple of times.  My oldest is sensitive and kind. He has had a hard time seeing his Papa but he is brave and continue to come and see his grandfather. Meagan always says I love you Grandpa. He always responds with "I love you, too" even if his voice has been muffled behind a breathing mask or silent with a trach tube. She clings to the gift of his love.  It is beautiful and benefits  me, too.

This way of my children bring sunshine to their grandparents, it is like glimpsing the intangible legacy. It is a gift to see the delight of a legacy.

Have you found a gift in a surprising place lately?


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